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Saturday, March 12th, 2005
10:51 pm - maro's
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current mood: crunked & lesbian

(3 times | fuck me sideways)

Sunday, December 12th, 2004
2:00 am - as puck
EDIT! This was written in the wee hours of the morning while i had been drinking for a bit & i am here, now, (Sunday at 2 pm) to translate what i can. Translations will appear after each paragraph in bold


i'm a6 shkeapeare's. what did genther jusst say? uck was sueslesss. mt thuimbns are on fire. brain just called dan a fucking faggort. let's ge ito on....... colred. bp dt eeeeeew2 brina puykex i meN PUKEDbnrian wahseh his teeth out for 15 minutes im writing in my urnbal uiits supposetd ot be urinal !!! gdan gi es brian A HIGH i wanna read baouyt the your inr beull

i'm Shakespearean. What did Genther just say? It was useless. My thumbs are on fire. Brian just called Dan a fucking faggot. Let's get it on. Code red. Eeeew. Brian puked i mean puked. Brian washed his teeth out for 15 minutes. i'm writing in my journal it's supposed to be urinal (?) !!! Dan says Brian is high. i wanna read about this in your journal.

5 rock on!!!

holy fucking shiteee brian is drunking drunkeen thatn he whas evern done in this shhhha lifee. it shir;yy driu;nkng lifegenthere s[face is beneat6h the cha4i dan wants to do hbrians'a ss brian wil cmmit suideice if daN EVER does hims in the butte. *laugs* yeah bith es. fag whoot! klegs. dan just snorted.holy fcukking shite/ g\happy hanukkah fucking jewish peop.e berina says y\/ burina faboooos are you spea,ing jewish? faggot;ja l;j are you speianbge jaoooooieish

Holy fucking shit, Brian is drinking drunkener than has ever done in his shaylife (yes that's what he said). It's shay drinking life. Genther's face is beneath the chair. Dan wants to do Brian's ass, Brian will commit suicide if Dan ever does him in the butt. *laughs* Yeah bitches. Fag whoot? Dan just snorted. Holy fucking shit, happy hanukkah fucking Jewish people. Brians says Brian fabulous. Are you speaking Jewish? Faggot jail. Are you speaking Jewish.

wow


these kids are cray!!! crawfish. fckrss. perios. on the rag. yo have gained th ecnancer. i mean CAN CER!! exlmation ioponts. brain lost ihsis hate. brian is brain. and di is dead. OH NOW!!!!! dan is reading what i type. brian is reborn as a warrirot/ cutn. )cunt) cuttin ! you guys crack me the frcuk up!! yeag btches.hwat the fu k. brina has cancer in hid ryes. what the fuck are you reakidng you idiot? guvbirs? *laugs* logsorithyms genther s is holding ht fan in dans roomm. he is sooooo passed out. he had liiek 2 drinkes. he sucks butt & man cock. fat man akckock *& cokkc & cnacr) yeah beaothces. what the fuck ia x-knoackers. i need a nother drink.brian left to go listen to music . dot do t dtoe.i think he's taking a shit.eeedan is stil realndin every think i type. what al loser. ha ha. i leaugh inhis general direciton. j havbe to epee again. i htink io'll g to ht eporn bratheroomm.

vbat!

(that means bye in drunkend talke)

These kids are crazy!!! Crawfish. Fuckers. Period. On the rag. You have gained the cancer. i mean CANCER!! Exclamation points. Brian lost his hat. Brian is Brain and Di is Dead. OH NO!!! Dan is reading what i type. Brian is reborn as a warrior cunt. (cunt) Cutting! You guys crack me the fruck up!! Yeah bitches. What the fuck. Brian has cancer in his eyes. What the fuck are you reading, you idiot? Guvbirs (?) *laughs* Logorhythms. Genther is holding the fan in Dan's room. He is so passed out. He had like 2 drinkes. He sucks butt & man cock. Fat man cock (cock & cancer). Yeah beeotches. What the fuck is an x-knocker. i need another drink. Brian left to go listen to music. Dot dot dot. i think he's taking a shit. Dan is still reading everything i type. What a loser. Ha ha. i laugh in his general direction. i have to pee again. i think i'll go to the bathroom.

Bah!

(that means bye in drunken talk)
Current music: hiccup, Dan chewing gum, party mix


current mood: drunk

(2 times | fuck me sideways)

Monday, June 23rd, 2003
12:37 pm
minigurl
Magic Number16
JobSporting Great
PersonalityVicarious
TemperamentSweet Natured
SexualIf I Have To
Likely To WinThe Lottery
Me - In A WordUnique
Colour
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This dealie made me realize... i need a new journal. At least a new name or something, you know???? Yeah, but as we all know (or maybe you don't) i didn't creat this journal or its name myself. The infamous ex Donald created it for me way in the hell back in July of 2000. & he just named it minigurl b/c he's ghetto & i'm small. But eh...

i just don't like it. i'm a try & do something about it.. & i'll let everybody know, b/c i'm kinda sick of this one.

i mean it this time!

Ick. Today i have work. 5 til i don't know. Anywhere between 11 pm & 3 am. Poop.

"He called the poop poop!" ~Tv edited version of Billy Madison

hahahaha

current mood: creative

(fuck me sideways)

1:00 am - far too much
wishful thinking.

caught between.


gah.

he's just so...


now i have the time to think about it. i still get mad. depressed. i still hate him for it. but i guess i got him back for what he did... or did i?


why am i still thinkin about it? it was over 3 months ago.


he's sorry, right?


it's ok. don't get depressed.


you have him, remember?


that doesn't help much.

current mood: depressed

(fuck me sideways)

Saturday, June 21st, 2003
9:47 pm - equation
My work + Dave's gone + Charles' shitty work schedule + Daddy stealing my car to go to work & not letting me drive his + No money (ha maybe that's what work's for) = SHITTY SUMMER!!!


boo.

current mood: bitchy

(fuck me sideways)

12:01 am - Butter Saver Butter User Butter Butter
OI. i'm so fucking tired i can barely type. But i'll try b/c Daddy'll be home soon & i have work tomorrow from 1 to God knows when. oi.

Today. Work... fun fun. Then the mall for bhlakis. Then home, then to Ambs' then to Di's party. This is where i became known as Butter Saver b/c i don't use all the butter in those little packets on my rolls. i only use some. So i'm Butter Saver. Ambs is Butter User, & Di Di's.. well i dunno. ima just call her Butter Butter. Food was good, lotsa talking & catching up & shite. Oi...ow i have the fuckin hiccups & they hurt....

After we left the party (around 10) Ambs & i went to Taco Bell to see if we could get free pop from Charles. No free pop but i did get to see him. Sorry but he looks damn good in his lil Taco Bell hat, mmm hmmm.. Ok..nevermind. i'm sad b/c i can't see him until fuckin SundaY! when we go to the zoo? i think? ok. But he'll call me tomorrow before work so yay.

i miss Dave. i sent his 4th letter today.. well Ambs was the one who actually put it in the mailbox.. you get the idea. Oi.


i say oi a lot. Now i must go b/c i'm dying of exhaustion & hiccups. Ow fuckin a. Ambs update about the "plague-erism"... yep our own word, hell yeah.


ok that's all.

*falls asleep on keyboard*


*wakes up & remembers she needs to put current mood & music*

Damnit. i'm awake... fuck .

current mood: exhausted

(3 times | fuck me sideways)

Thursday, June 19th, 2003
12:20 pm - Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
That's what i said!

Anyway.. i'm skared for .. myself. Pedro knows why & no one else does & that's the way i'm gonna keep it. Gah!

Random Simpsons quote:
Jay Sherman: "And you must be the man who didn't know if he had a pimple or a boil."
Homer Simpson: "It was a gummy bear."

Hahah i'll have to put that in Dave's next letter... hmm maybe i'll write him one today... or finish the one i started?? i write that boy too damn much. Oh well i just hope he doesn't get sick of it.

Quizzes! i told you there'd be more.

DEMON
DEMON


(females)what is
one of your past lives? (results contain pictures)

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Angry eyes
ANGRY EYES


What kind of anime eyes do
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25forever cool
My Inner Age

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This is a black rose.
You are a loner, and most likely a goth. You wear
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represents
you because you are very dark. You
are a black rose, the symbol of the vampire.


Which rose are you?
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e
dark magician u r skilled at the dark arts, brave,
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what yugioh card r u
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Which one of my favorite BANDS are
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you are a green goddess


What kind of goddess are you (Girls only)

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You are the song MISTRUST. You don't like anything
really do you? I was in a very angsty
mood when
I wrote this. I was pissed off at my boyfreind
for somethin he said. You were
the 34th song I
wrote. Please feel free to comment on my
quizes, any of them you may
have already taken,
or even this one!


Which song from my band are you?
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WHAT THE HELL ARE U DOING HERE, u are not in
love..or obsessed with
nobody,good!


are u obsessed with somebody?
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your an all around punk


What sort of punk are you
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Saber Fire!


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make fun of people


what do u
do?

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HASH(0x87d9abc)
Half note. Somewhere between normal and quirky.


What Musical Note Are You?
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You're a loner, and you are very unhappy. Cheer up!
Find yourself something to do, or
become a goth
and hang out with them.


What high school stereotype are you?
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YOU WILL BE A CRACKHEAD ON THE STREET-you like to
do drugs but you will end
up letting that
little fettish control your life. you will
live, eat, sleep, sniff stuff, all on
the
street. this is an ok life but watch out for
those crazy mo-fo cops.


what does the future hold for you???
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Villian
You're A Villian!
You evil person, you. You have a dark side to you.
Your destiny is world
destruction/domination.
Just so long as those pesky heros stay out of
your way.


What Type Of Anime Character Are
You?

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Oif. TOday would be a good day if it wasn't for that damn... dealie.

Hahah funny thing of this morning. Charles won me a stuffed teddy bear that's all red white & blue & USA-ing & shite.. & i named him Mr. Communist.

Well i think it's funny. o the irony.

Laugh damnit. Ok

i'll laugh by myself

HHHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH hahha hah?

current mood: scared & amused all at once

(fuck me sideways)

Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
11:47 pm - i <3 Joey Pants.
That has nothing to do w/ this. Oh well. C'est vrai, anyway....

picture of lemur



WHAT TYPE OF
WILD CREATURE ARE YOU? (New Pictures!)

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Dark Water
You come from Dark Water. You are solitary and
find peace in
yourself, or maybe you're
turmoiled but pull off peace.


Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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IAmKittenSoup
I am an edible kitten. Now lets never speak of this
again.
**pretends to forget**


Which cute or possibly strange kitten are
you?

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^that's just a funny ass picture, i tell you whut.


HASH(0x83aa978)
The Jackal


What sign of the Black Zodiac are
you?

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sweet.


kiss my ass2
congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care
about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud


which happy bunny are you?
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Results from Mash:
You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a black Lexus.
You will marry Charles and have 1 kids.
You will be a director in London.

& finally...

DisorderRating
Paranoid:</fon>High
Schizoid:High
Schizotypal:
Moderate
Antisocial:</f>High
Borderline:</ font>Moderate
Histrionic:</fo>Moderate
Narcissistic:
High
Avoidant:</fon>Moderate
Dependent:</ font>Moderate
Obsessive-Compul
sive
:
High

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Hahahaha. Oh you don't have to worry. There's plenty more on the way... mwahahahaha


current mood: evil

(fuck me sideways)

Tuesday, June 17th, 2003
2:02 pm - a lil bit of good news for ya...
No wait, it's good news for me..

i got the job!!

Whoo.. hoo?

At least i'll be making money.

& i get the car tomorrow.


YAY!

Job.

current mood: relieved

(1 time | fuck me sideways)

11:31 am - a long drawn-out entry in an attempt to fill the void
&.. if you will...

Friday-> Over Charles' at 8 am to sleep. Leave about 10:30 for machining avec Mare. (Ugh.) Interview at the Star at 3:30. Went well, i think. Envelopes & pool w/ Di around 8:00. i kicked serious ass. Leave cue club at 10 ish. Kyle calls while i'm dropping Di off. Yay for Kyle. Plan to hang out next week. Head over to Dave's for 10 minutes to say goodbye. Lots of hugs & "i'll miss you's" Yay for Dave. Home. Nothing.

Saturday-> Get up at asscrack of dawn (6:30 am) to go to Eastern Market avec Daddy. Buy lotsa vegetable plants & go to Rocky's for candy & dried fruit. Yummy. Home. Planting from 9 to 10:30 am. Oi. Shower. Get ready for party. At last minute, Di can't go. Poo. Leave about 1 ish? to go pick up Charles & Aaron. Mail Dave's first letter on the way. Head to Mare's. Depressed & stressed. Coke makes me feel better. Others show up. i have a car full of people, Charles is shotgun, Aaron Craig & Chris are in the backseat. i wonder. i follow Mare out to Whitelake, fighting w/ Charles over the radio. Not getting in an accident. Reach Uncle Paul's house. Say hi to Paul. Eat kibbie. Yum. Drink lots of Coke. Go swimming. Chicken fight Stacey & Craig. Haha i won by DEFAULT. Get out b/c it's cold. Hang out until Charles has to leave to go to work. i stayed behind w/ Mary, Craig & Aaron. Take walk to the llama farm. Do the llama dance w/ Aaron. Yay. Walk back. Sit in hammock w/ Craig & Mare. Toast marshmellows, make s'mores. Talk to Pedro! Chris & Anthony come back w/ Mary's car. i take off w/ Anthony. Drive him back to the city. We talk about Wayne & calculus & relationships. Yay. Drop him off, he wants to hang out. Ok Veltri, i'll call you sometime. Head out to Shelby to see Pedro. Hit the gas station, it was dark! AMC to see The Italian Job. Well half of it.

Sunday-> (very early Sunday morning) Drop Pedro off at his house about 1 am. Head back down to Eastpointe to Mare's house. Get to Mare's about quarter to 2. Sleep for an hour. Get up at 3 am. Go to Taco Bell. It's closed. Go down Charles' street & park to wait for him to get home. He comes home at quarter to 4. Go inside, try to sleep. But he keeps talking. Sleep finally at 5 am. Wake up at 11:15. Go home. Father's day. Go to gay Grandpa's. Eat. Drive. Home. Sleep. Wake. Draw. Nothing. Grr.

Monday-> Over Charles' again at 8 to sleep. Get up at 10 & leave. Come back home. Eat & get ready for next interview. 2nd interview at Star at 12:15. Took 6 minutes, what the hell. Went well i hope. Mail Dave's 2nd letter. Yay. Home. Chores. Dinner. Charles calls. Get depressed. Color. Write. Kyle calls. Hanging out w/ him soon. TJ calls. Hanging out w/ him Wednesday? i hope he doesn't try anything. i really hope. Think. Get depressed again. Sleep.

Tuesday-> Sleep until a sickeningly 11:00 am. i feel like shit & don't feel like doing anything. For the first time in my life, i actually feel guilty.

current mood: depressed

(fuck me sideways)

Monday, June 16th, 2003
11:27 am - goin old skool
i'm just a teenage dirtbag baby


ooooooooooo ooooooooo ooooooooo ooooooooo

ooo


o

current mood: stupid

(fuck me sideways)

Thursday, June 12th, 2003
10:07 pm - this just has to be said
I LOVE YOU DAVE

current mood: happy & sad (he's leaving)

(1 time | fuck me sideways)

Wednesday, June 11th, 2003
11:03 am - Eee hEe hee
i just wanted to see the new pictures & how they looked. Yay! i love .jpg! Ok, so i have nothing to say. Yesterday was quite atrocious, first Mary, my long lost other half, called me out of the blue.. i wonder why? Was you poor Jackass busy? Grr, anyway, i didn't call her back b/c i didn't feel like dealing w/ her whiny shit. Later i guess she & Chris invited me & Charles to go see Finding Nemo w/ them. Since when in the hell does she start inviting us anywhere? Augh. So of course we didn't go b/c i was being a bitch. SO there.

The talk w/ Dave was... eh...i said what i wanted to say. But i think i made him feel like shit. Oh well, i guess he deserved it in a way...? But then again... i was pretty harsh. i know we're still friends.. i'ma try to see him tomorrow sometime.. but... he told me i mean "everything" to him.... uh. That one got to me...

Sooooo... after that, i called Chaz to tell him i'd be leaving soon & he was like, "Why aren't you leaving now?" Ugh, the impatience of that boy... so when i tried to leave then my dad caught me & was all like, why are you leaving so early..? AND THEN my mom calls & bitches me out for not having a job & not caring. WELL FUCK THEM ALL.

Getting to Charles' i hoped i'd be able to just go downstairs, curl up on the couch & not have to do anything. UGH but NO, he wanted to know what was wrong! So i told him everything... & basically his answer was "to not let them get to me," which is fine advice for my parents.. & Mary... but for Dave? & of course Dave is the one person in my life that i care so deeply about that Charles would rather see dead. SO he has no sympathy. He's fucking glad that he's leaving, & it's tearing me to pieces. Everything is. It's just all going to shit.

The rest of last night wasn't so bad.. good ass dinner & chocolate.. The Green Mile. Good movie, too. But....ugh. i say that a lot.

Today is nothing.

Finally.

current mood: lazy

(3 times | fuck me sideways)

Tuesday, June 10th, 2003
12:42 pm - here's to the f*cking night
Why did i just censor my own god d*mn subject title thingy? i dunno. Sometimes the little asterisks look fun. Anyway, yesterday sucked my ass off... as i'm sure you could tell. Hence, the 3 entries about nothing. Gar. Last night i planned to see Charles, you know, go over his house, watch a movie, bitch to him about everything because i can... but he got called into work at the last minute. Thank you, you god damned Taco Bell. So those plans were cancelled. i decided i'd just stay home, not call anyone (b/c i didn't feel like dealing w/ people) & cuddle up w/ my Butcher Boy & just read for eternity. As luck would have it, i read about 10 pages & the phone rang. Guess who it was! Kyle!! Yay!!! i hadn't seen him since prom & i hadn't hung out w/ him, like just "us," in about... God it had to have been about a year and a half. So out of the blue he's just like, "Hey, come over. We'll hang out, just the two of us." i was so glad to hear that... since everything w/ Mike & i is fucked up the ass, & most of Mike's friends whose company i really enjoyed (Kevin, Troy, etc) either hate me/ dislike me/ are apathetic towards my existence. But not Kyle! Nope, i got my ass over to his house & the party started.

Ok so it wasn't a party. We made an 8:45 mall run (we had like 2 minutes to shop) & Kyle bought a new earring. Then we went to The Java House & chilled for a good hour, him pouring sugar packet after sugar packet into his tea, & me sipping away at my mocha espresso. MMm yum. Good times, i tell you what. Afterwards we went back to his house & chilled in his driveway for about 10 minutes, & then i had to go. For just hanging w/ Kyle, i had a really great time. We promised we'd hang out again soon, & that we'd keep in touch, especially when we both (hopefully) move out to California. *sigh* i know they're just dreams, but hell. i'll do it someday.

So today.. Sare's coming over & we're gonna go shopping for MORE father's day shite. Dave's calling me after he gets home from skool since we didn't have a chance to talk last night... hehehehe... but yeah. This should be fun. But not really. Then later i'll be heading over to Chaz's for.. well.. you know. We have a bet going though... if he falls asleep while i'm over there tonight, he has to buy me ice cream. If he doesn't fall asleep... then... i have to.. well... tell someone something. i agreed. Why the hell not? i don't have a damn thing to lose.

So obviously i'm better since yesterday.. Kyle really brightened up my day, & knowing today i'll be gettin out.. & i have a job interview on Friday! So hopefully i'll be gettin something soon so i can save up for tattoos/ piercings/ clothing/ CDs/ gas/ & finally grad skool. Ugh. Other than that.... i've just... ... i dunno yet. Let me finish that statement later.

current mood: apathetic

(fuck me sideways)

Monday, June 9th, 2003
7:15 pm - You Whore
i know you are but what am i?

A whore.

Takes one to know one.

Damnit. It's true.

current mood: crappy

(fuck me sideways)

10:20 am - sqabble
...

what the hell is this?

what the hell was that?

what the hell am i supposed to think?

nevermind.

i'll just forget.

let it go.

it was nothing.

so fine.


be a fucking hypocrite.


the least you could do was tell me.

fuck it.


i just don't care anymore.

current mood: pissed off

(3 times | fuck me sideways)

12:20 pm - this kept me occupied...
(1) The singular most boring question: what is your name? oh... what isn’t it?
(2) Are you happy with it? a bit too common of a name for me, i believe.
(3) Are you named after anyone? i don’t believe so, nor do i care
ah?
(5) Your screenname: on AIM? why the hell would i tell you?
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? actually Kate isn’t a bad name, but i’d
much prefer something more exotic (& yes, more Shakespearian), like Katarina
(7) Then what would you name your children? i have plenty of names in mind, but i’d have
to discuss it w/ the daddy.. as long as i know who the daddy is
(8)If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? whatever
my parents named me, hopefully nothing gay. Maybe Kenny. Good name.
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? Diana, b/c i don’t know
anyone else named Diana, & we call her Di Di! Yay! But it doesn’t fit me, so nevermind.
(10) Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people do with your name constantly?
Teachers, etc. call me Kathryn, even though i specifically tell them to call me Kate or
Katie. That’s the shitie thing about having .. ya know, one of those names. Plus, no one
knows my way of spelling Kathryn.. they either spell it w/ a C or without the y or
something. People are dumb fucks.
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? My last name is... well you
know it. & it kinda sucks, don’t ya think? But then again.. it adds character!

BASICS
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

(12) Your gender: i am a man trapped inside a woman’s body... who likes men. Wait...
(13) Straight/gay/bi? i have heterosexual tendencies. Then again.. i am a man.. who
likes.. men.. so... oh this mixed gender thing is confusing.
(14) Single? don’t you wish. no actually i quite am. KRAZY!
(15) Want to be? was the answer above not enough?
(16) Your birthdate: May 18 no Mar 23 no Aug 20... i lost track. i have a lot of those
birthday things.
(17) Your age: too fuckin old to still have a journal... & nothing in it besides surveys &
quizzes
(18) Age you act: Depends on the situation. Anywhere between “this many!” *holds up 5
fingers* & .. well god knows. Probably 18.
(19) Age you wish you were: i’m kool
(20) Your height: yes. i am 7’1”. Hahaha no i’m not.
(21) The color of your eyes: hazel? i think? i dunno, come here & tell me.
(22) Happy with it? no i want to remove my eyeballs & get new ones, like in Minority
Report. Haha, wouldn’t that be sweet?
(23) The color of your hair: couple different shades of blondishy red.. hehehe
(24) Happy with it? i have always wanted green hair.. but alas, green isn’t my color now is
it? Naw, redhead is fine w/ me.. as long as i can play w/ temporary dyes
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? fuck off, i type w/ both hands
(26) Your living arrangement? a hot, dark cave that’s attached to the back of my daddy’s
house
(27) Your family: Daddy Dickhead, Mommy Crackhead, & Sister Know It All
(28) Have any pets? yay! My DOG! Max. He’s the shiznit.
(29) What's your job: Hahaha, job? What’s that? i guess i keep Charles amused often
enough.. but i don’t get paid for it.. oh wait, yes i do!
(30) Piercings? 3 holes in each ear. i need more! i’m so bloody masochistic
(31) Tattoos? Hell fuckin yeah. Just one though... i need at least 2 more before the year
2004 or i’ll die. i need them. They’re addictions.. oh wait..i see!
(32) Obsessions? Let’s see here.. masochism, control, sadism, livejournal, &.. myself!
(33) Addictions? caffeine (or carbonated beverages), probably alcohol, livejournal, tattoos
(35) Do you speak another language? le francais... a lil bit in Italian, Spanish, German &
Polish & Hebrew
(36) Have a favorite quote? the oh so famous, “i do that to people!” Heheh, that’s my
quote. By ME!
(37) Do you have a webpage? Sadly. i really need to.. ya know, do something w/ that.

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? “live in the NOW, man!” What? oh.. no.. wait, what?
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? no. People are fucking stupid.
(40) Do you have any secrets? plenty... but then again several people know them
(41) Do you hate yourself? Are you kidding me? i’m so fuckin conceited i make myself sick.
(42) Do you like your handwriting? Ok, yeah that is pretty kool. It’s the smallest
handwriting that most people have ever seen.. & my cursive looks like that on the
Declaration of Independence & shit.. ya know, all old-like.. does that make sense?
(43) Do you have any bad habits? Fuck yeah
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? “You’re beautiful” -Charles,
“You’re a whore” -Mary... yeah that’s all i can think of. Oh yeah! “You’re not a dumbass”
-Dave
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Small. i don’t fuckin
know! Lemme make it first, then i’ll tell ya.
(46) What's your biggest fear? i’d have to say... socks.
(47) Can you sing? indeed. quite loud, too.
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? Oh yes, i’m pretending to
be... a hobbit! Oh wait.. i am one of those!! Hahaha... this question is dumb.
(49) Are you a loner? yep
(50) What are your no. 1 priorities in life? Keeping myself well-fed, intellectually &
creatively stimulated... & satisfied in the only way you know how to do it..
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Depends on what other
person i was. Popular? Hell no. Druggie/loser/geek? Hell yeah.
(52) Are you a daredevil? i do happen to be the spawn of Satan.. somehow in our sick
twisted little Southern family
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? i fear... ok nothing. i hate being
indecisive & thinking i can get away w/ treating people like shit. Oh wait. i do!
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? Hehehe can we say.. bi-polar? Ok no. That’s a bit
extreme. i’m both, depends on the situation.
(55) Have you got a journal? i gots the livejournal goin... i gots another set of online
journals for other stuff. & i gots my notebook series loaded w/ all my poetry
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? i have intelligence, but no common
sense. Well, yes i do. Ok.. i hate too many people. There, ya fuckin happy now?
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? To have the powers
of God. Ok no. i’d change... um... um.... um.... um....oh oh i know. i’d have more
motivation ... for stuff that matters... or doesn’t matter? Gah!
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. You can only drink out of one.
Which one would you choose? Mmmm drinking. Pass me the creative Pucker, hell yeah.
(59) How do you vent? That’s what the journal’s for... i also complain to those that will
listen.. & then i try to do something constructive w/ my aggression, whatnot...
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? i’ve dealt w/ a ton of shite, more than you
know... & look at me. i’ve done the drugs, the drinking, the sex, the cutting, the suicide
attempts.. & i still manage to have a 4.12 GPA & fake everybody out into thinking i’m just
fine. Does that mean i’m just a good actor? Oi.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? 2 major things i regret:
Heroin & Nyquil.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? It was good for a time, then it got bad. Now
it’s pretty good again.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? People are dumb, & i
know everything. No, i’m kidding. Probably is that people are not as dumb as i would like
to think... damnit.
(64) What do you like the most about your body? i like my hair now. & i have nice legs
(besides the fact that they’re short). i do have a really nice abs area... & my skin is better
than yours.
(65) And least? uh... what? Shaving legs, etc. gets annoying. Does that count?
(66) Do you think you are good looking? i’m so fuckin cute. People think i’m 8.
(67) Are you confident? a bit.
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? hmm that’s a good one. i’d like to
compare myself to ... probably Pippin from LOTR. i’m a hobbit, i’m clumsy, i’m not brave, &
i’m always hungry. MMm. “What about second breakfast?”
(69) Do people know how you feel? when i tell them.. or they insinuate.. damn them
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? nope. i’m pretty blunt, actually.

DO YOU...
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(71) Smoke? used to. i don’t think i’d ever turn down a joint.
(72) Do drugs? hahahah.... DO I!!! of course. what kind of teenager do you think i am?
Didn’t ya read? 0% straight edge!
(73) Read the newspaper? hell yeah
(74) Pray? i do
(75) Go to church? NO, if i can help it
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? i don’t get IMs from strangers. Nobody likes to talk to
me... then again...
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? yep
(78) Take walks in the rain? i have before.. i’ll probably do it again
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? uh. Now that skool’s done.. not really. But
still, occassionally i have to
(80) Drive? whenever Daddy doesn’t steal my car
(81) Like to drive fast? sometimes

WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice? it’s surprisingly deep for me being such a small girl
(83) Hurt yourself? i used to intentionally, & sometimes accidentally... but yeah... probably
only if i got really bored & wanted to see some scabbing
(84) Been out of the country? oh bloody hell. i live in the fuckin D. Who the hell hasn’t
been over the god damn Ambassador bridge?
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? huh? i dunno. i’ve sucked cock, does
that count?
(86) Had sex? what do you take me for, a virgin? Hell yeah i’ve had sex.
(87) Been unfaithful? HHAA that’s a good one. Yeah, too much, actually.
(88) Been in love? yeap
(89) Done drugs? haha, another good one. NO SHIT.
(90) Gone skinny dipping? ... no
(91) Had a medical emergency? not that i know of... well... nevermind
(92) Had a surgery? uh no
(93) Ran away from home? Seriously debated it... & i mean packing & planning &
everything... just not walking out the door, all the way.. & not coming back..ya know
(94) Played strip poker? ha. poke
(95) Gotten beaten up? yep
(96) Beaten someone up? not to a pulp, but i’ve gotten a few good punches in there.. &
everywhere
(97) Been picked on? & thrived off of it
(98) Been on stage? several thousand times
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but
you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the
mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? i don’t go on dates...
(100) Slept outdoors? hahah yep. i remember that one time, in Rachel’s backyard, w/ the
Dilo missions & all...
(101) Thought about suicide? attempted & did not succeed. Damn pills didn’t work.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? indeed
(103) If yes, what is your record? i have a record
(104) Gone one day without food? yeah but only once & it almost killed me. i fuckin love
food. it’s god.
(105) Talked on the phone all night? oh yeah
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first (moms and
daddys don't count)? eww parents. but yes, i have, several times... & been disappointed,
too! Damnit, i wanted sex!
(107) Slept all day? uh, & hated it
(108) Killed someone? i wish!!!
(109) Made out with a stranger? he didn’t quite count as a stranger... what constitutes as
a stranger? i had known them less than an hour.. does that count? well then yes, twice. Or
more than twice. i don’t remember
(110) Had sex with a stranger? Hahah not quite... but almost
(111) Thought you're going crazy? nope
(112) Kissed the same sex? on the cheek. i think
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? i’ve “slept” w/ girls.. but not fucked them.
Oh, i’ve touched Mary’s ass .. & Di’s boob... & Ambs all over.. but we were in mosh pit. Did
that count?
(114) Been betrayed? quite
(115) Had a dream that came true? uh
(116) Broken the law? OH PLENTY! ah, let’s see here... technically speaking, i’ve
shoplifted, been in possession of, done, bought & sold illegal drugs, underage drinking, a
couple felonies or so.. & ...heheh.. does rape count? Oh shut up. He wanted it.
(117) Met a famous person? uh.. Showoff. Yeah.
(118) Masturbated? no... it doesn’t work
(119) Masturbated with something other then your hand? you mean like w/ other people’s
hands? Oh yes, then there’s always Mr. D... aka Donald.. then Dave.. ok i’ll quit
(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? i think i killed my hermit crab by
feeding it coffee grounds. i dunno.
(121) On purpose? i hope not
(122) Had sex? would you like me to count? It’s gotta be over a hundred times by this
point.
(123) With more then 1 person? Heh let’s count. 1 2 3 ...4! no wait.. 5? ok let’s not count
him.
(124) Threesome? ah.. the memories. attempted. Really didn’t quite work out.
(125) Orgy? oh i wish. But only with guys.. & me
(126) Whip cream? yeah, chocolate sauce too! & oh the chocolate covered cherries?
mmmhhmm
(127) Bondage? sorta kinda almost tried?
(128) Whipped/gotten whipped? ha! yep
(129) Blindfolded? mmm kinky. i’’ll have to try that one
(130) Tied someone up/been tied up? no.. kinda wanna try though. Anyone? Anyone?

ahhhhhhhhh?

(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? heheh...yeah. but no one cared, really...
ok. so i didn’t care.
(146) Stolen anything? many things.. many times. i’m such a thief
(147) Been on radio/tv? Ah, yes indeedy. Big Ass Steve, & the “i guess you could say i’m
obsessed” quote from channel 2. Yep.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit? OH QUITE. Shall i count? ok too many to count. Over 10, at
least.
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? i don’t think so
(150) Considered religious vocation? never
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance? ha. hell no. i rule
(152) Bungee jumped? noo....
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? i’ve had the same dream twice.. but it never
came back

CLOTHES and other fashion shit
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(154) Shoe brand? Vans or Airwalks, basically skate shoes that fit me. That’s really hard to
find.
(155) Brand of clothing? Ah, thrift.
(156) Cologne/perfume? uh.... what?
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Skool is for losers. Work is for
losers. i run around my house nakie. Ok not really. Just.. clothing, god damnit.
(158) How about parties? Now that’s when i run around nakie.. or in a towel,
whatever works.
(159) Wear hats? i like backwards baseball caps. But i feel/ look/ act like i’m 10 when
wearing them.
(160) Judge other people by their clothing? Yep. If you’re female & you show skin, you’re a
slut. If you’re male & you have baggy pants & a kool Tshirt on.. & possible a backwards
cap, then.. i am in love w/ you.
(161) Wear make-up? only on stage... & for proms & shite.
(162) Favorite place to shop? Value World!!!
(163) Favorite article of clothing? hmm that’s a toughy. i’d have to say my hoodie. Keeps
me warm. Then my black jeans.. oh yes, & my kickin chicken GM seatbelt belt. i don’t give
a shit if they’re trendy or not. They are the easiest damn buckles to unbuckle! plus i’m
always wearing my seatbelt.
(164) Are you trendy? i became trendy when thrift stores did. Now that they’re not.. well
then no i’m not.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? High school? yeah, college? no

BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets? honestly? not particularly.. i’m more apathetic to the
whole life on other planets possibility
(167) Miracles? & what constitutes as a miracle? isn’t it really just a coicidence? then yeah,
i guess
(168) Astrology? all i know is the stars are pretty to look at but they can’t tell the future
(169) Magic? hahah.. they’re all illusions, i know
(170) God? sure
(171) Satan? i know her
(172) Santa? “Santa? Satan? They’re the same damn person!” ~Detroit Rock City
(173) Ghosts? eh.. kinda. i’d believe more if i actually saw one
(174) Luck? not quite, i don’t think
(175) Love at first sight? nada
(176) Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? yeah, i’ll believe that
(177) Witches? & then you have to define witch...
(178) Easter bunny? decapitate
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yes indeedy do
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? i wish
(181) Do you wish on stars? only on shooting stars... b/c .. i dunno. i wish a lot

DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? nope
(183) Do you think God has a gender? nope
(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? sometimes
(185) Do you believe in organized religion? Everyone does their own thing anyway,
whether it be following “organized” religion’s guidelines or not... so.. it’s not really that
organized now is it?
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? Anywhere in the hell we want... ha, that
was a pun

AMIGOS
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? homosexual? no... bi? yea
(188) Who is your best friend? ... not quite sure anymore... um, myself!
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? Mare
(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Trust no one, & guys are
dumbasses.
(191) Your favorite inside joke? There’s plenty of those... i can’t think straight.. quite...
(193) Who's your longest known friend? Rachel
(194) Newest? Erin
(195) Shyest? Di...
(196) Funniest? Pedro Stevo
(197) Sweetest? ...
(198) Closest? i guess it’d be Dave
(199) Weirdest? ... me? no, i don’t know
(200) Smartest? me
(201) Ditziest? Mare
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? Rachel & Eric, etc.
(203) Last person you talked to online? Kati
(204) Who do you talk to most online? myself
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? Charles & Dave
(206) Who do you trust most? no one
(207) Who listens to your problems? anyone.. well i dunno if they’ll “listen”.. they’re just
kinda there
(208) Who do you fight most with? Charles
(209) Who's the nicest? Di
(210) Who's the most outgoing? Charles, probably
(211) Who's the best singer? hehe...me
(212) Who's on your shit-list? plenty... a new one was just added today
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? yes.. & done it too
(214) Who's your second family? Used to be Mare’s b/c i lived there for so much time..
now i guess it’s the Cannon’s b/c i’m always over there..
(215) Do you always feel understood? i purposely make myself confusing to the opposite
sex b/c guys are dumbasses & it’s funny.. hahahaa
(216) Who's the loudest friend? that’d be me.. & Charles, i think?
(217) Do you trust others easily? not anymore
(218?) huh?
(219) Name one person whose arms you feel safe in: Charles
(220) Do your friends know you? kinda
(221) Friend that lives farthest away: Rachel! Tj! Pedro! They’re all far up in there...

LOVE, and all that
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(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? nooo
(223) Do you remember your first love? Yep. Ghetto Steve... in that sense anyway
(224) Still love him/her? in a way... i’d never go out w/ him or anything, but i know i’ll still
always care about the kid
(225) Do you consider love a mistake? nope
(226) What do you find romantic? ...romance... what’s that?
(227) Turn-on? ...
(228) Turn-off? ... i don’t wanna talk about this stuff
(229) First kiss? Wesley Morris in 3rd grade
(231) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how
would you feel? i would probably... be all, “Sweet, i’m wanted.”
(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? knowing
before is probably best... but i’d like to be surprised once
(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?
Since when have i cared what’s socially acceptable? i’ve asked plenty of guys out.
They didn’t think there was anything wrong w/ it. What is this shit?
(235) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
Yeah, but then they grow on you.
(236) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? Yea.. at least that’s what they
say... but sometimes i just don’t know anymore
(237) What is best about the opposite sex? They have dicks & want to use them w/ you.
(238) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? They have dicks & want to use them
w/ other girls.
(245) Do you read porn? Read? no Watch? yes
(246) Read the articles? in the newspaper, yea
(247) Just the pics? i said i watch it.. & make it, but ya know
(248) What's the last present someone gave you? a lovely little stab in the back.. ouch
(257) Are you in love? i think so.. but then again.. those damn emotions
(258) Do you consider your significant other hot? ......gah...
(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl
standing on the sidewalk? ha... i’d look... then try to get them hooked up w/ Di... or maybe
myself.. depending on my mood

THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
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(267) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? yea, but only
for a short period of time
(268) If you did experience that for one day, what would you do? Try to discover what is
so damn attractive about boobs... & then jack off b/c hey! they can
(269) What do you love most about the other gender? i can usually control them..
manipulate them, you name it
(270) What do you dislike most? ...plenty of stuff...
(271) What do you understand least about the opposite sex? o just about everything
(272) Honestly, what do you notice first in the opposite sex? their hair (or lack there of) &
clothing

POSESSIONS
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(273) What is your fave possession? the videocamera & CD player
(274) What physical, tangible possession do you want most? kick ass film equipment, all of
it
(275) How badly do you want it? pretty damn bad.. but i’ll get it someday
(276) Have you ever seen The Exorcist? yes
(277) How long did it take for you to understand why the last question is in this section?
as soon as i read it.. b/c hell i’m that damn good

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
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(279) That haunted you? ...
(280) You wanted to kill? her, then him
(281) That you laughed at? Charles
(282) That laughed at you? Charles
(283) That turned you on? Charles
(284) You went shopping with? Sare.. for fucking father’s day, god damnit
(285) That broke your heart? Charles
(286) To disappoint you? Dave
(287) To ask you out? Charles
(288) To make you cry? myself
(289) To brighten up your day? Dave
(290) That you thought about? Dave
(291) You saw a movie with? Charles Aaron Craig & bitch
(292) You talked to on the phone? Charles... he just called
(293) You talked to through IM/ICQ? Kati
(294) You saw? my dad, eww
(295) You lost? *sigh* Rachel
(296) You went head over heels for? ...
(297) You thought was completely N-U-T-Z? huh?
(298) You wanted to be? myself, i think
(299) You told to fuck off? ...in my head? Dave, but not to his face. Not yet, anyway
(300) You trusted? Charles
(301) You turned down? Charles

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
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(302) Smiled? this morning when Charles called me
(303) Laughed? this morning on the phone w/ him ^
(304) Cried? Thursday night
(305) Bought something? yesterday
(306) Danced? Friday, in the car w/ Sare
(307) Were sarcastic? sometime in the not so distant past
(308) Kissed someone? ...Saturday night... & i regret it
(309) Talked to an ex? this morning
(310) Watched your fave movie? it has definitely been a while
(311) Had a nightmare? sometime in the past week...
(312) Talked on the phone? this morning
(313) Listened to the radio? this morning
(314) Watched TV? last night..i watched about this much of Chicken Run
(315) Went out? yesterday
(316) Helped someone? Ha. i helped Dave escape from his house on Saturday night...
(317) Were mean? This morning... & i will be later on.. just wait
(318) Sang? this morning.. NFG
(319) Saw a movie? the whole thing? Friday night.. Head of State
(320) Said "I love you"? This morning, to Charles
(321) Missed someone? Right now. He knows it, doesn’t he?
(322) Fought with a family member? ...sometime in the past week, w/ my mom, i think
(323) Fought with a friend? heheh... i will be later
(324) Had a serious conversation? yesterday
(325) Smoked weed? 5/24
(326) Got drunk? 5/24
(327) Had sex? ...4/6/03... Dave.. god damn i need to get laid

A LAST TIME for everything...
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(328) Last book you read: the whole thing? On the Road. Currently? Butcher Boy
(329) Last movie you saw: Head of State
(330) Last song you heard: “The Game” --Disturbed
(331) Last thing you had to drink: Tropicana
(332) Last time you showered: wow. day before yesterday. i’m dirty
(333) Last thing you ate: bagel
(334) Last CD you bought: Facture
(335) Last thing you bought: camera for Daddy for fucking father’s day

RIGHT THIS MOMENT...
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(337) Are you going to? kill him? Yep.
(338) Will it be with your significant other? he’s not...
(339) Or some random person? but it’s definitely not random
(340) What are you wearing right now? polar bear pajamie pants & a white t shirt
(pajamies)
(341) Body-part you're touching right now: my left thigh is touching my right foot (i’m
sitting on it)
(342) What are you worried about right now? what i’m gonna say to Dave when i talk to
him
(343) What book are you reading? these questions
(344) What's on your mousepad? a mouse... nothing.. really
(345) Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: confused, pissed, not in control
(346) Are you bored? kinda but i have work to do
(347) Are you tired? quite
(348) Are you talking to anyone online? no
(349) Are you talking to anyone on the phone? i was
(350) Are you lonely or content? a little of both
(351) Are you listening to music? indeed. Disturbed’s The Sickness Cd

NUMBERS
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(352) Do you laugh when you hear the number 69? sometimes
(353) Were you lying about your answer to the previous question? no
(354) Do you actually know your social security number? yees
(355) Do you actually know your IP address? no
(356) Do you know what an IP address is? yes
(357) Do you know the four-character extension on your zip-code? noo
(358) Have you ever thought there were too many numbers floating around in our lives? i
have, but i don’t care
(359) Does your head hurt when you think of infinity, imaginary numbers, irrational
numbers, etc? nada
(360) What do you think of pi? i hate pie, & pi can suck my nonexistent balls. i haven’t
taken any math classes in a year & i don’t want to. fuck it.
(361) Have you got a fave number? 26 & 76
(362) How many rings before you take the phone? when i get there, usually, but only if i’m
expecting a call
(363) Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? indeed
(364) How many CD's do you have? plenty... about ... 90ish?

COMPUTERS
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(365) Mac or PC? pc
(366) How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer as long
as it works? i’d like to know more.. but i don’t
(367) Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversations? That depends on
with who i am conversing... & what the conversation is about
(368) Do you find you're different talking through IMs than face-to-face or telephone? i
never really thought about it.. i don’t think so
(369) Have you ever ended bid on something on eBay and regretted it later? no
(370) How much time do you spend online each week? too many
(371) Is the internet one of the modern things you could never live without? i’ve lived w/o
it for a long time.. but i am addicted so.. meh.
(372) Do you even receive snailmail letters anymore? hopefully i will this summer, if Dave
writes
(373) Send any? i will
(374) What's your fave smiley? smileys are for pussies
(396) If you could meet anyone in the world, living or not, who would it be? mmm Kevin
Smith. He’s just so kool.
(397) Who is your idol? Kevin Smith, the Coen brothers, M. Night Shymalan (sp?).. Kurt
Vonnegut, Salinger... all those krazy filmmakers/ writers who i look up to
(398) What band has the funniest name? mine. or my “old one”, ahha... it was everything
from Tre’s Spill to Biblicious. Hahah that’s fucking hilarious.

current mood: a lil better but not much

(fuck me sideways)

Friday, June 6th, 2003
11:51 am - "My blood hurts."
Sorry, i'm not obsessed. Ok yes i am. Crotch! & i just had to throw that in there. Man, i'm beat.

So yesterday was amusing. i got to drive my own car, finally! i went picked up Dave & we got lost going to Parkadoon, but then i was afraid so we went to Spindler. That was fun, except when he picked me up & threw me off of the jungly gymie thingy. Oh well, i was all sandy & dirty & stuff. Grr. i'll get him back. i tried to leave w/o letting him in the car, but he jumped on my hood as i started driving away & i really didn't wanna kill him. Then we talked & stoof... makes me sad that he's leaving.. damnit. Oh well.

The rest of the evening was pretty pointless. My mind was swimming, again.. it was krazy. Besides the fact that carnival rides are not good if you have a sinus headache type thing in the first place...but last night was just.. no good. & then... well, nevermind.

i discovered last night that i am an alcoholic. Aww, fuck. At age 18, everybody. Damnit. i know, i'm fucking screwed. Yes, i know when to say no.. but ... damn. i suck.

So today i'm going down to Wayne w/ my sis to go job hunting b/c man, i need one of those. UH.

i want to keel over & die.

*oof* & there i go.

current mood: drained

(fuck me sideways)

Thursday, June 5th, 2003
11:54 am
Everybody! Everybody! Ok a lil bit o homestarrunner for yas.. so last night after updating, i went in search of this old ass survey that i did almost 2 years ago (June 8, 2001) & i thought it would be funny to post it just like it was back then... you can so tell.. it's all, Donald-ing & stuff. So take a look. & then later, i'll update it & see how i've changed in 2 years... i know, i'm just really bored.. but it keeps me amused, so yay...

~From June 8, 2001, 10:08 pm~
[01] What's your first name? Kathryn (shut up)
[02] Middle name? Marie
[03] Last name? Stephens (haha..soon to be)
[04] Nicknames? Katie Kate Kates Midget Minion (I'm everyone's bitch) Circle Skank Gruffy Mushroom..oh lots more
[05] Age? 16
[06] Sex Gender? Im an it
[07]Birthday? Mar 23 85
[08] Your sign? Aries
[09] Where do you live? D-Town..well in a week
[10] Do you have a boy/girlfriend? fiance
[11] If so what's her/his name? Donald
[12] Have you ever been in love? I think so..yeah I have
[13] Who are/were your crushes? um..Mary? No, Donald
[14] Do u have any piercings.or want any? Yuh huh but they don't really count
[15] If so what do you have/want pierced? Got my ears twice..want more in the ears, belly button, lip & eyebrow like 10 times
[16] Do you have a tattoo or want one? Nope..yeah I guess
[17] If so what kind and where? I want like a ton, of whatever's on my mind that day..wherever I like..dunno
[18] Where do you shop at the most? I don't. I'm poor & spend all my money of food
[19] What color is your hair? Ask Mr. P. Uh..first 2 strands are blond..then its reddish..ish..Mr. P says strawberry blond...but if Mary gets a hold of it it'll be red or blue or any other color we think of
[20] What color are your eyes? light brown
[21] How tall are you? 4'9"..legal midget & proud
23] Do you smoke? Used to..it's bad don't do it
[24] Do your friends smoke? Not really..sum..not all..nor most
[25] Who are your closest friends? Mary Rachel Stevo & Donald
[26] Who are your friends? My bitches..oh you want their names? Mary Donald Stevo Rachel Amber Diana Lauren Karolyn Liz Jenna Jamie TJ Ghetto Steve (ish) Chris Aaron Craig Anthony Charles Danny Nolan Aja...& I think that's all. Wanna be my friend?
[27] Who are your best friends online? Uh..I only talk to Rachel & Stevo online..sometimes Amber Liz Diana Donald Aja Ian Karolyn & my sis...Leah...& Greg! ha
[28] Do you like Bath & Body Works? It's just smelly stuff
[29] Kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? Whatever's in the shower
[30] Is your hair short or long? Long as a mutherfucker
[31] Do you like to shop? I would if I had money
[32] What sports do you play? I skate..in a circle..ha! circle
[33] What turns you on? Donald..his tongue rings...Donald, in general..Mary..her large cock..Stevo..his sexy bod..and sandal thongs (haha..ok only Steve'll get that one)
[34] What turns you off? Uh..no I'm not gonna type it that's mean
[35] What place do you go for fun? Mary's room, whoo! Naw, my room provides solace, Mary's for sex (ha), Rachel's for memories, Donald's for..him..& round Eastpointe for just chillin, concerts, skatin...wherever
[36] What do you do for fun? Fuck Mary (ok I really gotta quit)..I chill..I eat..drink pop..listen to tunes ..skate...write...draw..sleep...Donald...ha
[37] How many phones do you have in your house? a lot actually..like 5
[38] How many TV's do you have in your house? 2 and neither work..no tv for over a month!
[39] What's your favorite foods? chocolate Coke pizza & pizza rolls Italian stuff & seafood
[40] Do you look like anyone famous? I was once told I look like the chick..Julia Stiles or sumthin..but I don't...I look like a katie
[41] Do you think Ricky Martin is muy guapo (very handsome?) Oh yeah...he bangs he bangs ya know..ok NO
[42] Who are the most attractive people you know? personally? Donald..Mary (jokin) ..Donald.. ok Justin's kinda hot & so are other people but Donald's the best
[43] Are you a virgin? ...no comment...
[44] Do you wish to be like your parents? My ma's a crackhead & my dad is a Pocahontas-penis w/ a beard. You decide!
[45] What cologne should a hot guy wear? Do you think I pay that much attention?
[46] What are you listening to right now? EvE 6
[47] What time is it? 10:35 in da pm
[48] How many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone? Depends..like old people diapers
[49] Do you have your own phone line? No I'm not that popular
[50] Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex? Yah
[51] What are your favorite shoes? Either my ghetto old Airwalks or my ghetto new muddy Airwalks..the only shoes I wear
[52] What kind of clothes do you sleep in, if any? clothes I was wearin that day..usually
[53] What's your favorite soda? SURGE but they stopped makin it I'm pissed..next to that Mountain Dew & Coke
[54] What things do you say a lot? Um...uh..nyah..wiggle wiggle...STEWART!!..oh fuck me..all quotes from MST3K's "The Final Sacrifice," "Dennis the Menace" & "SLC Punk"
[56] Who is the coolest person in the world? Donald Mary Stevo & Rachel all tie fer first..Ghetto Steve too just b/c he's kool
[57] Do you think you're weird or funny? Neither...I'm...me
[58] What would you pefer Thong or Bikini? I don't wear bathing suits...well...maybe...no
[59] Who was the last person you called? um..my mom actually..ha!
[60] Where do you wanna get married? my old church..St. Matt's in the ghetto
[61] Who is the hottest girl/guy in your school? Mary..& Mr. P...ok hi I go to an ALL GIRLS SKOOL HERE..the previously named people were a JOKE
[62] What are your favorite girl names? girls suck
[63] What are your favorite guy names? Um. Tre. Hahha
[64] What's your worst memory in the past 5 years? ...Apr. 29th 1999...
[65] What's your favorite childhood memory? the tree the Plum Pit Walgreens Great Skate (its sad I know) Kennedy Park the eggroll & Zs. hanson. not just a memory..
[66] What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Taco Bell & Wendy's
[67] Who do you really hate? hmm..racist people..people who treat other people like shit..but no one in particular
[68] Do you have any brothers and sisters? one sis of my own family...& then I have 2 more sisters & a brother
[69] If so, names? Sarah...Mary..Nickie...Joe (ha)
[70] Do you have a pool? it died
[71] Do you have a spa? no
[72] Are you stupid? not many people think so..I don't
[73] What are you addicted to? chocolate..pop..livejournal...ha
[74] Do you like jewelry? makes me look pretty
[75] Who do you wish you were? damnit...myself
[76] Who has it easier, boys or girls? don't know, I'm neither..
[77] Would you rather be short or tall? Ehehehehe.... trick question? SHORT DAMNIT
[78] Do you like to dance? oh yeah ..the WIGGLE DANCE!!!
[79] Do you like playing pranks on people? Only when they deserve it
[80] What's your least favorite subject in school? Bio. Ms. Marra's a bitch..but skool's OV-A now, yes!!
[81] What's your favorite subject in school? Lit & le Francais
[82] What time is it? 10:56..pm
[83] What college do you wanna go to? ha UCLA
[84] What school do you go to now? gayness. Regina Mundi
[85] Do you have a Playstation or Nintendo 64? no
[86] If so, what are your favorite Playstation or Nintendo 64 games? um I don't have one..but I like the TMNT game..& I like watchin Donald bust his ass on Tony Hawk..haha
[87] Do you sleep a lot? more than I should
[88] Whats your favorite radio stations? most of em suck. 89X, 94.3, the WRIF
[89] Are you a night person? uh huh
[90] Are you a morning person? nope
[91] Whats your favorite TV station? I don't watch tv..but if I did..SCi-Fi COmedy Central & MTV 2 even though it's gay
[92] Do you shave? yah
[93] How often do you shower? every mornin & sometimes more..w/ Mary..NOT REALLY
[94] Do you get along with your parents? see # 44
[95] What room do you spend the most time in? my room, the bitty room, Mary's room
[96] How many rooms does your house have? 9
[97] What do you wanna be when your out of school? a cinematographer/director/producer
[98] Do you curse a lot? ish..when it's necessary..or when I'm pissed off
[99] Are you ticklish? heh..no comment..
[101] What are you wearing right now? an 89X tshirt, my big ass new blue jeans, no shoes or socks b/c they're evil..& I'm naked b/c I have hardly any jewelry on
[102] Do you go to church? when they make us in skool
[103] Do you like the person who sent you this? she's a racist bitch...& I stole it from her
[104] Do you believe in God? yesh
[105] Do you like to watch PDA? only Mary's & my videos...haha
[106] Do you show PDA? um..I'm going out w/ Donald. I never noticed.
[107] Do you believe in love at first sight? Kinda sorta
[108] What color tooth brush do you use? it's purple & gay
[109] How many times a day do you brush your teeth? 2 er 3
[110] Who is your favorite cartoon character? Beavis Kenny (South Park) & Bart Simpson is hot as hell
[111] Do you have a job? no why do you think I'm always broke?? Oh wait Mary pays me for..um..nevermind
[113] What's your favorite fruit? Raspberries are the shit
[114] What's your favorite veggies? green beans hell yess
[115] What's your favorite candy? TWIX oh fuck yeah
[116] What was the best day of your life so far? Hard to decide..so many...all the times w/ Keith or Rachel or both...most days w/ Mary..day I met Donald & everyone else.. Warped Tour last year.. Jan. 15 2001..May 12 2001...today...
[117] What are you gonna do today? Sleep drink & get fat
[118] Are you momma's little angel? no
[119] Do you wear body spray? does Febreeze count?
[120] Who is the sweetest girl? Mary & Rachel though they're not girls..so Diana & Amber
[121] Who is the sweetest guy? Donald & Stevo
[122] Are you wearing nail polish now? no
[123] If so, what color? fuck me
[124] How many rings or necklaces do you own? a ton but I usually wear 2 rings & 5-6 necklaces
[125] Do you wear a watch? no
[126] Did/Do you have braces? no...no
[127] Are you tired? a bit..but I can pretend I'm not
[129] Do you have freckles? not at the moment..those things just pop up on me sumtimes
[130] What are you thinking right now? how thirsty I am & how pathetically long & gay this thing is
[131] Are you having fun? it's keeping me busy for a bit that's all that matters
[132] What time is it? 11:14 pm
[133] Who makes you laugh? almost anyone..Donald Stevo Rachel Mary & Amber the most though
[134] Who's your favorite teacher? Moscotta & Mr. P & I miss Ms. Coddens the man!!
[136] What is the best concert you have ever been to? Warped Tour 2000, Fuel, 3DD & Fuel, 89X Birthday Bash..oh yeah & Hanson..nyah!
[137] What is your favorite dream? w/ the men & the 2 foot long penises flapping in the wind..don't ask!
[138] What is your worst dream? the same one..skary as hell!
[139] Are you tired of filling this out yet? yea but I'm bored so I'm still doin it
[140] Who of your friends do you think will get bored with this? what the fuck no one's gonna waste their time readin this peice o shit
[141] Who sent this lovely survey to you? I told you I stole it
[142] What's your worst memory as a little kid? didn't we already do this one?
[143] Have you ever cheated on anyone? yeah..not proud of it
[144] Do you believe in Santa Claus? he's my bitch
[145] Do you believe in ghosts? they're my bitches too
What's Better? Choose one or neither

[146] Rap or R&B? as long as I know the words I like it
[147] Pop or Rock? Rock..
[148] Rock or Metal? both
[149] Classical or Jazz? classical
[150] Hanson or Manson? both
[151] KoRn or 311? both
[152] No Doubt or Garbage? eew
[153] Jewel or Fiona Apple? i can dig fiona
[154] Offspring or Nine Inch Nails? both
[155] Sugar Ray or Tool? both but Tool's god
[156] Backstreet Boys or 'N SYNC? NSYNC BABY OH YEAH
[157] Joey McIntyre or Jordan Knight? Mac-in-tires

Your Opinions

[158] What do you think about Boy Bands? as long as I can sing & dance to it I'm kool
[159] What do you think about Country? um. I don't like it but other people do
[160] What do you think about Heavy Metal? kool shit
[161] What do you think about Rap? s'alright..DMX baby!!
[162] What do you think about R & B? as long as I can sing..oh you get the idea
[163] Do you think NKOTB are coming back? um..I miss the old NKOTB.."o o ooh o o ooh...the right stuff" Hell yeah.
Yes or No or Eh :).

[164] Yes or No. Like Hanson? you bet yer ass
[165] Yes or No. Like *NSYNC? catchy
[166] Yes or No. Like Backstreet Boys? not as good
[167] Yes or No. Like KoRn? sellout poseur band but kool
[168] Yes or No. Like Orgy? men w/ makeup=sexy, orgies are fun too ya know
[169] Yes or No. Like Sugar Ray? sum
[170] Yes or No. Like Metalica? YAH
[171] Yes or No. Like No Doubt? Old stuff's alright...new stuff can suck my ass
[172] Yes or No. Like Britany Spears? haha no
[173] Yes or No. Like Aaron Carter?? haha he's small
[174] Yes or No. Like B*witched? wut the fuck? no
[175] Yes or No. Like Joey McIntrye? nice voice
[176] Yes or No. Like Jordan Knight? turtleneck
[177] Yes or No. Like Busta Rymes? funny as hell
[178] Yes or No. Like Offspring? Fuck yeah
[179] Yes or No. Like Ricky Martin? sexy..kidding!
[180] Yes or No. Like Coolio? not really
[181] Yesor No. Like Janet Jackson? its ALL FOR YOU!!!
[182] Yes or No. Like Spice Girls? oh my god they're old...SPICE UP YOUR LIFE BABY!!!!
[183]Yes or No. Like All Saints? catchy
[184]Yes or No. Like C-Note? um..probably not
[185] Yes or No. Like 98*? catchy
[186] Yes or No. Like 5ive? since when did 5 become an F?
[187] Yes or No. Like TLC? annoying
[188] Yes or No. Like Take 5? um...? no
[189] Yes or No. Like Moffats? sexy...um..I dunno
[190] Yes or No. Like Jennifer Love Hewit? gag me
[191] Yes or No. Like Dixie Chicks? echhhhh yucky
[192] Yes or No. Like Mariah Carey? good songwriter
[193] Yes or No. Like EYC? uh
[194] Yes or No. Like Brandy? no
[195] Yes or No. Like Eminem? yah
[196] Yes or No. Like Shaina Twain? no
[197] Yes or No. Like Monica? don't remember who she is
[198] Yes or No. Like Mya? she's small too
[200] Yes or No. Like Blessed Unions of Soul? wow they're still around? yea
[201] Yes or No. Like Bared Naked Ladies? funny guys
[202] Yes or No. Like Robbie Williams? conceited
[203] Yes or No. Like Sixpence none the richer? naw
3 MORE] Yes or No. Like LIMP BIZKIT? sexy...yah..old skool shit more though
[203a] Yes or No.. DO you like the Beach boys? classic
[203b] Yes or no.. Do you like Def Leppard? classic
[203c] Yes or no.. Do you like Whitesnake? ha! Winger
[203d] Yes or no.. Do you like Queen? hell yes
[203e] Yes or no.. Do you like Elton John? talented

Music..

[204] How many Cd's do you have? uh maybe 70-ish
[205] What Cd's are in your CD player? the one in my room or the one in here? probably Staind in my room..here...uh...Offspring's Ixnay
[206] How many tapes do you have? millions & billions
[207] Do you own videos of your favorite group? Hanson Sum 41 & a buncha taped shit of kool bands
[208] Do you record your favorite group when they're on tv? used to
[209] Are you obbsessed with your favorite group/singer/band? ish..and that's bandS
[210] What's the oldest group/singer you are still listening to? Probably the Who
[211] Are most of your friends music freaks? I dunno
[212]What do you think of the girls and the whole teeny bopper thing? used to be one..haha
[213] Have you ever paid for a pay-per-view? what kinda gay question is that? NO
[215] Do you ever buy merchandise of your favorite group? if I have money
[216] What TV station is better...MTV or VH1? damnit no tv...but..um..neither
[217] What is the worst show on Mtv? almost all
[218] What is the best show on MTV? I miss Beavis & Butthead & Sifl & Olly
[219] If you could marry any music person who would it be? Donald. He's musical
[220] What is the worst CD you own? uh...the broken Mariah Carey one in peices on my floor..I still own it!
[221] What's your favorite movie Soundtrack? A GOOFY MOVIE!!!!!

Friends..

[222] Friend(s) that looks most like you? Uh well I'm considered Mary's other half so..I dunno. Her.
[223] Friend(s) you go to for advice? Mary Stevo Rachel & Donald
[224] Friend(s) you have the most fun with? Donald, Mary & the guys, Stevo, Rachel & her guys
[225] Friend(s) you can do nothing with and still have fun with? Mary..but we do stuff...we fuck!
[226] Friend(s) you've dreamt about? Probably all
[227] Friend(s) you tell your dreams to? Uh. Anyone who cares.
[228] Friend(s) you tell your secrets to? Those to whom it relates
Guys..

[229] Boxers or briefs? boxers...or none at all. ha
[230] Long or short hair? um. Donald's.."fro"
[231] Dark or blonde? uh Donald. Probably considered dark. (no offense, I love you)
[232] Tall or short? tall...as all hell
[234] Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? Donald. Both.
[235] Good guy or bad guys? Donald. I don't understand the question.
[236] Dark or light eyes? Dark...Donald...hehe
[237] Hat or no hat? I don't think he can wear a hat..he wears a visor
[238] Ears pierced or no? yepp..& everything else
[239] Tan or fair? um..Donald. He's black.
[240] Freckles or none? he doesn't have any
[241] Stubble or neatly shaved? nice goatee goin on the chin area
[242] Rugged outdoorsy type or sportsy type? uh Donald. He's...um...skatey.
[243]All american, homey G, or grunge? Donald. He's...um..evil inside..& stuff.
[244]...there was no question 244...oh well
[245] Accent or American? sure. he does both

On preferences

[246] Mt. Dew or SURGE? SURGE
[247] McDonalds or Burger King? grease. Burger King
[248] Coke or Pepsi? COKE COKE COKE Ima cokehead I swear
[249] Rather marry the perfect lover or perfect friend? Donald. He's both & everything else.
[250] Sweet or sour? oooh
[251] Chocolate or vanilla? yummy in my tummy
[252] Tea or coffee? eww hot drinks are yuck
[253] Sappy/action/comedy/horror? anything & everything except those gay chick flick teeny bopping peices of shit cinematography wastes of film
[254] Cats or dogs? both & everythin else
[256] Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheese? nacho cheese
[257] Mud or Jello wrestling? ooooh..both kinky
[258] With or without ice-cubes? WITH WITH WITH
[260] Milk/Dark/White chocolate? uh..chocolate in general kicks ass
[261] Shine or rain? lil of both
[262] Top or Bottom? whoah
[263] Favorite season? summer & fall
[264] Strawberry or Cherry? cherry
[265]Skiing or boarding? Boarding
[266] Biking or blading? both
[267] Cake or cookies? ooooh yum let's be fat
[268] Cereal or toast? toastest w/ the mostest..except for Lucky Charms Trix Cinnamon Toast Crunch & Coco Puffs...cereal sex!!!
[269] Car or truck? wheels & an engine..sumthin that moves
[270] Night or day? both good..night's best though
[271] Gloves or mittens? my hands get rather cold
[272] Pager or Cell phone? Mary's cell...no one could live w/o it
[273] Bunk bed or waterbed? Waterbed..hah
[274] Chewing gum or hard candy? hmm. whatever keeps me occuppied
[275] Motor boat or canoe? what the fuck
[276] Lights on or off? Off..whoo

What's your favorite?

[277] What's your favorite color? green & black
[278] What's your favorite Number? 26
[279] What's your favorite Drink? Surge Mountain Dew Coke Sour Apple Pucker & Mike's
[280] What's your favorite Animal? Mary..kidding..dog
[281] What's your favorite Holiday? Halloween
282] What's your favorite Quote? oh lots..too many to type...um....."Mmmhhhaaaammmmmyyy, yyyeeeaaahhhhh!!!"
[283] What's your favorite Sound? Donald's voice
[284] What's your favorite Ice cream flavor? vanilla w/ like..toppings & stuff
[285] What's your favorite Song Ever? lots. "When I Come Around," "FOD," "All by Myself," "Macy's Day Parade," -Green Day, "Me," -Staind, "Sunburn," & "Shimmer" -Fuel, "Gone," -Showoff, "I'm Sorry," -Blink, "Kryptonite," -3DD
[286] What's your favorite Book? Butcher Boy, Pigman, Lord of the Flies
[287] What's your favorite Movie? American History X, SLC Punk, Goofy Movie, Detroit Rock City...TONS more
[288] What's your favorite TV show? I DON'T WATCH TV DAMNIT!!!!!! but Sifl & Olly. & WISHBONE!!
[289] What's your favorite Radio station? uh..89X I guess
[290] What's your favorite Place? in Donald's arms, his room, my room, Mary's room, anywhere w/ my friends
[291] What's your favorite Game? Risk..& 13 Dead End Drive!! ha
[292] What's your favorite Scent? uh...Donald..he has a scent...sorta...yum
[293] What's your favorite Food? isn't this a lil redundant?
[294] What's your favorite Shape? Oh my god no
[295] What's your favorite Texture? uh..? skin
[296] What's your house gonna look like? Ima live in a box. No...however Mary & I design it.
[297] Where are you gonna live? anywhere w/ Donald & Mary & my friends...hopefully California or New York..but I'll probably end up stayin here...ech...
[298] How many kids do you want? none...but it's probaly inevitable..so only 1 & it better be a boy & he better be kool as hell

On relationships

[299] What does your ideal girlfriend/boyfriend look like? Donald. Exactly like him. Change nothing.
[300] How do they act? Like Donald.
[301] Where is your dream date? Amusement park,
concert, a movie, dinner..& you can imagine the rest....
[302] Do you like to call or be called? called upon
[304] Move anywhere, where would it be? California
[306] What time is it now? 12:14


current mood: nostalgic

(2 times | fuck me sideways)

Wednesday, June 4th, 2003
11:53 pm - "I don't have to do nothin' but stay black and die." ~Morgan Freeman, Lean On Me
Well that was mostly amazing...

...He still makes me laugh.
...He still misses me.
...He still hurts me.
...He still sings for me, if i ask him to.
...He still makes me popcorn.
...He still says, "What do you think?" when i already know the answer.
...He still depresses me.
...He still amuses me.
...He still kisses me.
...He still ...wants me.
...He still believes in us.
...He still is sweet.
...He still has trouble with his vocabulary.
...He still understands, sometimes.
...He still questions my past.
...He still doesn't want anyone else.
...He still keeps my poem up.
...He still has all the pictures of me.
...He still has no idea what i'm thinking.
...He still instinctively reaches out for my hand.
...He still .. oh fuck it. He still fucking loves me, people.


Bloody hell.

And what about me? i'm sure that's what you're asking. What about me? Do i love him? Yeah, of course i do. But.. is it the same...?

Well hell if i know anything about the opposite sex.

Wait, i do.

Well hell if i know anything about how i feel about the opposite sex. There!

current mood: confused

(fuck me sideways)

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